About Me
Hello there. I am a student at The American School of Kinshasa. I am an athlete, and I have been playing basketball for 4 years now. Fitness has entered my life when I was in 7th grade. I have dealt with self-doubt for years, and it's been very hard for me, especially getting over it. I am here to help girls dealing with the same problem and to get over this hard time in their life.
Growing up shy and never being to speak up for myself was a challenge for me during most of my life, but what mostly messed it up was growing up skinny. Being the skinny girl in my family hasn't been all fun for me. I always felt skinny no matter where I was. At school, at home, in super markets, basically everywhere. I felt even skinny especially since I am pretty tall for my age, I am 180 cm tall. Living in an african family where being skinny isn't totally considered healthy, shook my childhood , and made it harder to love myself. Seeing my sisters being a bit thicker than me destroyed my life, not only that, but seeing gorgeus girls and women destroyed me even more. I found myself overdoing my workouts, which were to get my body used to being so active, instead I was using it to make my body look thicker. Social media did bring me down a lot, and especially Instagram and Pintrest. I am not afraid to say that I did cry. It is a very painful and hard journey. I was a very sensitive person, and the smallest things did hurt me back then, which made my battle against social vs. my body image even harder.
As I started getting older, I finally realized that this issue wasn't going to keep going any longer. My mother noticed that I was the most self-concious out of all my siblings. She made me feel better by telling me how she felt when she was younger. She told me that when she was younger, she was dealing with the same issue as I was. When someone noticed she'd lost a lot of weight, it'd break her heart. I know you might be saying, being skinny is beautiful, but as I am growing up in an african family, where your aunt comes and visit, and notices everything that's wrong with your body, being skinny just hurts. , To get over this torture, I also looking up workouts on the internet. When one, specially a female, wants to look up a feminine workout, a lot of women pictures show up, which can make you feel terrible about yourself, that's one thing I kept myself from doing. Specially since working out has been part of my life, making my own workouts wasn't that hard. I also surrounded myself with people that encouraged me most of my life. I am proud to say that I have very supportive friends and a supporting family that did get me get through a lot. I also opened up, and shared my problem with others, so they'd help me too.
Loving yourself isn't an easy step. It is actually very hard. especially when you surround yourself with things that hurt you. Always avoid poeple or things that put you down, and call you names. You are beautiful boo. If your crush or friends don't notice it, THEIR PROBLEM, you are gorgeus and never forget that
